there are so many days when i feel so completely torn about life. days when i feel every single bit of pressure society puts on me to buy a house, get my master's degree, have a baby, and have a 5 year plan. and then there are days that i want nothing more than to keep living abroad, exploring the world, and living a completely non-typical/non-cookie cutter life. and to be honest i don't think there is anything wrong with getting a higher degree, a baby, or buying a house etc. but i think it's the fact that you aren't considered successful if you don't have these things. jon and i were talking to one of our good friends the other day and just discussed all the pressure we feel sometimes to succeed. we have so many successful people in our families and our friends and we still really don't have much of a clue of what we'd like to be doing. i know one day that i really do want to get my master's degree, heck my dream is to get my phd. and i want children so badly sometimes, but i know right now is not the time.
i truly wonder though if i will ever feel ok living a typical life, i truly don't believe we are meant to live one type of lifestyle. i don't think God created us to to just get married, have kids, and have a career. I feel that there is a much bigger picture and that God doesn't believe in one cookie cutter for success. i think that anytime we are living the life he has guided us toward we are successful, and this life is different for everyone! which i so appreciate about God, his creativity never ceases to amaze me. i think my frustration lies with humanity, where success and happiness are judged in one way by our material lives. what do we have? what do we make? what can we buy? break out of the box people realize that there is more than one path and that you don't have to follow the crowd! live life while you can!
anywho... just what's been on my mind lately, your thoughts?
